Live for today.

Its been a while since i wrote the last post. well, actually i've been very busy for these few months. Tutorials, quizes, co-curiculum, sports, and final exam. what on earth..? huh.

and you know what, i realised now why my uncles didn't support me when i decided to go for matriculation and yet they as me to go for diploma. I now realised that life in matriculation is not an easy one. Once you take a break, or let say you left one step behind, you'll be lost.

Its not like school life anymore. Its totally changed. you have to depend on yourself. Just trust no one more than you trust yourself. It is normal for the youth to think 'why should i waste my 3 years taking dip while i can finish up my matrix and go for degree on the next year?' that is what i thought after the spm results was out. stubborn girl..kepala konkrit.huh

and one year at matrix is not easy..! seriously the very the tough one. should i say that i regret my decision now.?

i have to face the path that i taken.so here i am with the very giga punye susah final exam.

i am scared..what if i cannot make it.? what if my result is not good till i cannot get to continue my next sem..? haila...haila..sangat takut..

its all depends on me rightio??

live for today to create the future.

i have to start thinking what i wanna be in the future.

still haven't found yet the ambition that i've been looking for a while.

All this while, in my mind..there's only 1 vision, study first,job will come later when i get the best result.but now, i think i have to change that.

seeing my friends all having their own vision make me a bit jealous.

designer, doctors, nurse, engineer..huh..

i have to start thinking, searching, and knowing my interest..

should i take a personality test huh??
haha.

buntu..lost.aiyak!!

what to do..???
musykil..
da x ley nk gerak dah otak nih..
stuck kt traffic light yg ntah ble nk jln.
ceh
(gaye cm ade the big bang problem jek..)
blala..
walhal. kecik je pon..
ye ke kecik..?
hmm..
ntah
aku nk kuar g jmpe kwn psl die nk fly dah 3.9.2009 nih..
comfirm la after this payah ag nk meet..
skrng pon really2 hard to meet..huh
sorang utara, sorang selatan..
the problem is,
xkan nk kuar buka puase ngn dia??
im not feeling good r cmni cz
aku blk cni smata2 nk buka puase ngn family..
takkan nk g kluar kot..
xboley langgar prinsip aku..
family first..hehe
aiyakkk...
nk send dia smpai ke airport mmg la xkn tercapai
psl i have kuliah at that time..perrgghhh
so..
cmne..?
tefon je la..
mane boley..xkn x jmpe..
heh..g rumah dia??
cm malu jek..segan kt parents dia..
leh..cm x penah jmpe je gaye..
hehe
nmpknye..the best way kt sini ialah
capai telefon n buat crank call..???
heh
x de la..
call die n ckp study hard and take care..
susah btol..
kwn dgn die dah almost 11 years..
lame x lama tuuhh..
pejam celik..masing2 dah finished school
huh..

p/s~ awak, sori ye x dpt nk antar smpai airport..
kalo ikutkn mmg pon nk anta smpai pintu departure tu..
heh..jgn lost contact ye..tke cre..
(gaye cm ckp ngn die dpn2 jek..)

manusia diatas ialah seorang best friend known since i was in standard 1.
accidently, tersama sekolah smpai secondary school and bawa haluan masing2
setelah tamat spm..

~end~

TERHARU

just came back from tarawih prayer..
guess what..?
haha..
met my students there..at masjid..
they still recognise me..eventhough dah few months left that school..
dunno how to show the feeling..
but i feel gooooodddd
heh!
ye la..
sape x terharu kalo ade student remember us..
siap salam ag tuu..
terharu gilee la..
huh..
rase rindu plak kt student2 ku yg terchenta..
bilakah dapat bertemu..??
hahaha..
talking bout students, teringt ade sorang bdk prcticum..
boley dia ckp " ko ajar bdk2 kecik msti ko rase x sabar nk ade anak kn..??"
huh!! ape punye statement la inche iznul oii...
aku sgt gembira bersama budak2..
statement ko tu, never ever crossed my mind tau x..???
statement yang sgt melangkaui batas..
merentasi 7 benua..huh!
~nggeeee~

Missing the part of me..

im.so.bored.

dunno what to do..

nk study..

cm xda mood je..

i'll wait for the mo0d to come this night..

heh..boley caye ke..?

whateverr..

last2 belek2 la gmbar dulu kala..

gambar zaman skolah..

nk tergelak

terguling2..

almklumla..

gmbar dolu dolu..

~ngeee~

gmbar2 time form 5 dulu..

serious aku rindu bdk2 5 naim..

wehhhhh

bile nk wat reunion.???

start ngn faiq si kachak x jadi..

heehh prasan!! huhu

fatha, fadzli, hairi..

antara bdk pendiam gak r in that class..

tp kalau kt hostel tatau la cmne their character..

piji yang plg sukeee mnyakat org!!

asal ko mnyepi wehh..

aku ade wat salah ke..?

ke ko takut aku tnye psl ups..??

cehs..

hafiz..tgh amek stam skrg nih..

satu2nye ustaz dlm klas..

hehe

and the only and only one yang suke sgt

pronounce my name berdengung..

huh!!

dlu mnymph gle dgr..

but now..kna admit gak yg aku rindu bunyi tuu..

heh!

dia sorg je boley wat..

nnnnnooooiiiii..

hahaha

last sklali inche monitor..shahidan..

ceruk mane ntah die..

girls..leya..plg rapat ngn aku..

sama2 ngantuk time fizik..huh!

asal la time fizik je yg jd sleepy aa???

and yet, im taking science physical in matriks..

perrggghhh

and she's doing her engineering at uia..

with PHISYCS..

ape la nasib..

dayah, fatthir, zieqa, ain..

gambatte..kita di kmpp now..

fatimah..moga berjaya ngn law..

farhana, adilah, syu bek, ecah, miza,

kema, syida, anis, diba, timah judi, laila

fiza, fatin, fildza, halilah, sya, and wan..

rindu time kita koir sama2..

walaupun time competition tu tetiba nk gelak

pasal aku dgr ade suare sape ntah pecah..

wakakaka..

nk gelakkan org, tiba2 suara aku plak yg pecah..

eh..

suara aku ke..?

ye la tu..

malu nk ngaku..

naseb microfon bkn dpan aku..

haha..

bnyk bnda nk crita..

tp..

tatau nk mule dr mane..

heh

as for today, enough la..

Getting weird..???

Getting weird..????

i'm getting weird.

(its a statement)

am i..?

oo man!!!

whats happening..?

these few days..

i admit..

that

i. am. weird.

sepatah kata mek n fali..

salah satu sndrom h1n1

ialah berkelakuan aneh..

yeke..??? x caye la..

hahah..

well..dunno why

but i feel different ah..

haila..haila..why??

masuk bilik pon x bnyk ckp..smpai roommate sume pelik je

cz aku la yg plg bising all the time..

aku diam time aku tido..n time aku solat je..

time2 lain mmg suare aku je la..

hehe

but after i received a call from X!@#$??

huh! body temperature getting hot..

sape ntah yg buat call merepek tuhh..

dah lupe..

all of sudden..week tu jd week plg senyap ah..

ceh..sampai roommate ingt aku marah kt diorg..

well..kpd roommate2 ku yg terchenta..

aku x marah kt korg as korg pon tau aku x reti nk marah2 org..

im just...haiyoo tatau nk ckp cmne..

maybe at that time, hormone x stabil kot..

apaper je la..

boley roommate aku ingt aku gadoh ngn boyfriend..?!!

cehs..ape punye tanggapan daa..

aku x maen r weh..buayafriend n gelifriend nih..

huh!!

"lovers they may cause u tears"

btol ke..?

is it?

sndiri mau tau la beb..

conclusion kt sini ialah..

im.getting.weird.

kmpp rocks!!

KMPP ROCKS!!!

First time met each other..

huh!!

semacam je rase..

tegak bulu roma..

heh!

ye ke..?

but then..

ni da dekat 3 months..

blajar dalam kuliah yg sama..

same class..

everyday meet the same person..

relationship yg mmg wujud tu..

rese cm makin tied plak..

dah start rase syg kt sume..

( i mean as a friend)

huh!

At first..about 18 people kot as if i'm not mistaken..

(faktor usia..lupe dh! smbil buat rolled eyes)

but now..

guess what..

tggl 14 org jek..

14 people..

i repeat

1 4

o.n.l.y

so..i guess all of us da start or appreciating each other

kot la..

tatau..

i can't read people's mind!!

sume ade their own character..

huh!

macam2..

a bit dizzy mizzy r gak duduk ngn diorg!

peerrrghh

tp that's life..

mane de org boley thn serious 24 hours right..?

giler namanye..

mek..fali..najwa..kak fatin..

farhana..aisyah..bana..and ika.

and the boys..

the only and only iznul yg slalu buat muke ketat..

huh!

khairul..juzaidi..ikhwan and

zahid..the kp..

you guys rocks..

luv ya!!

a message

I received a messsage from a friend last two weeks..

i kind of like the message that my friend sent to me..

hehe..

when u read that message, you'll feel something..

but i dont know what is it..

kind a weird..?

hehe

i am like that sometime..

whateverr..

the message is..

" Wahai wanita solehah, jgn risau akan jodohmu

krn muslimin yg bjaksana itu tidak akn terpaut

pada wanita hanya pd kecntikan, lirikan snyuman,

pd bicara manja yg menggoda, pada pujuk rayu seorg

wanita yang akan mruntuhkan imannya.

Sesungguhnya lelaki itu adalah pmimpin kpd wanita.

Andai belum sampai jodohmu, anggaplah bhawa lelaki

yang kau nantikan itu sedang membina sahsiah kepimpinannya

bg memimpin drimu. Kerana pada wanita itu pasti ada kekurangannya

dan hanya lelaki yang benar2 layak pasti akan hadir

untuk melengkapkan kekuranganmu.."

the message is really touchE right..?

uuhhuu..

bukan nk kata ape la..

but..

i've been in kmpp for about almost 3 month..

i just some kinda shocked for what i've seen..

maybe org boley nk kata that i'm conservative..

but look

i dont give a damn bout it!

a bit terrkezzzuut ble tgk org couple mouple nih..

cz kt school dlu..its different..

mayb tkutkn guru dcpline kot..

but now its totally different..

totally..

family jauh..

so nobody would notice if there's something wrong with you..

org yg x pnh couple, yg always said that couple is haram la..

tetiba she's the one yg couple..

apaper je la..

at least if she can take a very good care of herself pon da ckup bgos..

semua yang baik tu dtg dr allah..

yg jahat tu..mlalui diri kite sndiri..

think about it..

clearly dear..

A memoir

Alright..

where do i start..??

ok..hmmm

last 2 months..on february 3rd

i started my english course at cambridge english for life..

On my first step there, i thought that the class would be quite

boring, with the very strict teacher and crazy student..?

hehehe

that was my first thougth huh..!

I thought that i had to survive crazily to get a friend

but then..

i realised that i was totally wronged..

there's nothing that i had to crazily survived..

huh..!

On our 1st day, we were supposed to introduce ourselves

and tell something about it like..why we are here and so on..

so, from what i can see..

most of us just say about no more than 30 words??

weird right??

yup..

absolutely..

but that happened..

same like me..

i just don't know what to say..

moreover i am totally a girl with lack of confidence in talking english with people..

pathethic isn't it??

ahaha

that's me..

i felt pity for myself..

so..

In my class there was 18 students i guess..

if im not mistaken..

start from the boys..

Iskandar, Razin, Ikram, Khairul, Izzat, Ezwan, Syham, Aziim

Aziz, and Zhafir..

i guess thats all..the boys..

and the girls..

Me, Haleeda, Anis, Hazirah, Farah, Dee, Rina, and Diana

thats all..

they were all friendly and happy friend..

i love being their friend..

The class went smoothly..

The teacher was sporting, helpful and what can i say..?

i love teacher suresh..

She confidently said that when the class is finish, we will be able to talk in front smoothhly and with full of confident..

At first..I just dont really confident with her..

But then, i have to admit that she was right..

I have learnt a lot from her and the class..

haha

We got into pairs, group..

we done all the interesting activities..

talking..

communicating..

all that had improved my english..

What can i say here is

Teacher..i owe you a lot..

thank you for everything..i am relly appreciate that..

thank you a lot..

and friend..

i hope that our friendship would last forever..

Thank you..

On my last day there..

i was supposed to prepare a speech..

but i didn't..

I just memorize them..

huhu

Then guess what happened to me??

I almost forgot all the things that i was supposesed to talk..

and i cannot talk..maybe bacause i was so sad as that was our last day..

whatever..

That time was the memoir for me..

i would never forget them all..

First Day Of Work

Well, as we all know..working epoch is not easy..moreover when you are an SPM leaver

like me..

without any experience and knowledge about work..

Maybe some of you may have known it before as you work within your holidays or whatever..

but, being in the working epoch is new to me..

I've never worked before as i am more comfortable to be at home.

But, after i have finished my 'nightmare' SPM, i decided to work..

rather than just sit at home and do nothing, i think it's better for me to find something that

can benefit me..at least i can buy my prepaid on my own..!(my mother bought my prepaid for

me before this..unbelievable?? hehe)

So, when my mother's friend 'propose' me to be a teacher at kindergarten in the morning

and at primary school in the evening, i am so happy and decided to accept her proposal

without thinking twice..hehe

Although my father a bit disagreed with my decision as he said that he can still afford me..

but, i wanted this job badly..well i though that working with children could be very interesting..

so..lasty the decision has been made and i started my work at Dzul Iman kindergarten

on the 6th of january 2009..

what a new experience for me..!

On my first day, it was not really hard

just that the crying scene you can see all the day..

haha..looking after children is not easy..!

(as i thought before)

also the wee wee (pee) in the trousers scene..

just knew that wee wee word maens pee..

seriously..

i just knew it today..! on my first day working..

teacher!! i want to go to the toilet..!

yes..sure dear! it's overthere..

waaa...teacher!!

what now..?!(monolog)

oh no....!

i think you all know what happen right??

hey..i'll be considered if he is new here or he is 4 years old kid..but he is the senior here yet he still pee in his trousers..

shocked me..!!

seriously..!

and now..i have to clean this up

was a mess..!!! i had to clean up all those..huh!!

Whether i like it or not, i had to do this..

After all, i am the one who decided to work here right?

but, i am not mad at that boy.. that's normal.. anyway, he's jus a kid..

fuuh...!! clening..cleaning..

Served me right..!!

waaa..help me..

but, i guess things would go better after this..i have to faced this because this was their first day..

so..i take it..i tried my best to work sincerely..hahaha

12.30..pm

I had been waiting for this time to come since 10.30..

what a long long day..!

at last..my suffer with the cleanings had finished

fuuuh...!!

I only can rest for about one and a half hours as the primary school session starts

at 2.30 pm

i want to sleep..i want to sleep..

my first half day of work made me SO tired..(penat G.I.L.A!!!)

At 2.30 pm sharp, i was there in front of the children from standard 1 to stanbdard 6 at the assembly court..

I was so nervous at that time..

felt like there was so many butterflies in my stomach..

and suddenly i had a stomachache to face with the children..!

alright..cool..calm down

you can do this..! they are just small kids..

relax..relax..

Ya!! they are small kids..but they were starring at me like they were bigger than me..

okies..relax..i can do this...

so..it was the time for me to introduce myself then..

i starred at them once and i started to talk..

Assalamualaikum everyone..my name is nurul athirah and you can call me techer nurul..

well, i'm new here and i hope that you all can give me your full co operation..hmm

i am 18 years old..

hahahahah!!hahahah!!

what was that??

what??

they were laughing at me??

cehs..

what the...!?

why???

teacher, seriously..are you 18?

hmm..ya..why?

nothing,it's just that..hahaha!

they were laughing at me because i am 18??

huh!

whatever....!!

well..overall

my first day in the primary school was not as tired as in the kindergarten..

i am the class teacher of class standard 1..

that's quite interesting i hope..

so..

that was my first day at work..

tiring but i enjoy working with children..seeing them happy make me happy too..

all my problems fly away when i see them laughing and smiling..but when they started to cry, all my problems came back and take their seat into my head..

working epoch is tiring, but, if you do it with sincere you'll be very happy and proud

of yourself..

Let's talk about life

LIFE

pain and plain ain't a crime

because it's you

celebrate life

It's still beautiful

No matter how much

it has made you

black and blue

Therefore, my sisters and brothers..!

Live life

Love life

Mistakes are invertable, aren't it?

and it's that

That makes life

invaluable

It's a gift from The Almighty

isn't it?

so,

have we thank Allah

for the life he gaves us?

for the fortune he provides us with?

for the tests he made to us

to show that we've never been forgotten?

Oo dear, sometime we even forgot to say

Alhamdulillah..

Alhamdulillah Ya Allahu ya rahmanu ya rahim

for every single things you gave us..

everything..

Never leave what you can do today till tomorrow

because you never know whether your heart is beating

in the next morning or not..